One Of My Turns

[mandysee_mandydo]

I'm having a really down and depressed day. It's one of those rare days for me where I just want to say, "The fuck with it all. The fuck with my job. The fuck with my life. Fuck it all. I give up. I'm going to sleep and maybe I'll just not wake up in the morning or ever." It scares me when I get to thinking like this. Like I'm just looking forward to that day when I'm dead and I don't have to worry about making ends meet or explaining myself to selfish small-town folk who think life is one big fucking Burger King where they can get it their way and maybe have some onion rings instead of fries, and I'm the guy who's supposed to ask them if they'd like ketchup, salt or pepper.

Yeah, I've got a case of the fucking Mondays. And a foul mouth to boot. Thanks dad.

I guess I should probably just chalk it up to stress and running on four-and-a-half hours of sleep, but when you're in the thick of it you just can't really tell yourself it's something so simple and everything will be okay with a good night's sleep.

Fuck this post. I'm done.

Comments

I don't like Mondays

[quantumswordsmn.livejournal.com]

This is where I'm supposed to comment with an upbeat but humorous reply. Possibly something about BK being full of crap followed up by a witty comment involving the possiblility that adding flair might make you feel better.

But right now I'm tired and my stomach doesn't feel so great, so just pretend that I wrote the above topics in well written and thought out reply, then reply something about nazis, and we should both feel better by the time I get up in the morning.

Re: I don't like Mondays

[srturtle.livejournal.com]

Goddamn nazi stomach! That bastard is the Third Reich reincarnate! I say we bomb the bejesus out of it!

Let me show that stomach of yours my flair...

[srturtle.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the hugs! I feel much better now.

On the up side

[(Anonymous)]

There are always weekends to look forward to. There will be Blue Man Group and lots of picking on Kathy.

Also I should be getting my bass this week so you can see it when you come down. :)

Chenoa

Re: On the up side

[srturtle.livejournal.com]

Weekends are good, and at times I have them off. Even still, though, I have to drive Kathy to and from work on Sundays so it usually results in me being away from home.

I'm really looking forward to Blue Man Group. And perhaps even picking on Kathy. And here comes the slap... nope. I'm wrong. It was the whine.

Here's hoping the your bass comes in. I'm more than happy to give you some more pointers.

[vireo-blues.livejournal.com]

Mondays indeed suck. I was feeling down yesterday myself.

But feel better! The week can only get better from here...

[srturtle.livejournal.com]

Well, I'll feel a little better about the week once Thursday has come and gone. I still have to film the Town Meeting tomorrow night, which was four hours last year and is generally being regarded as a short one. This year is looking to be monstrous. The Thursday night is the annual Water & Sewer District meeting.

But thanks for the words of encouragement. I'm hoping the weekend comes soon!

from Mrs_mouse

[(Anonymous)]

hey.... this is NOT the YOU im used to reading.... whats going on?

sounds like you didnt get any this weekend .... ok that was bad, im sorry.

anyway, i hope that by now your day is better. i HATE it when i get the everything sucks mode.

Mrs Mouse from you know where

Re: from Mrs_mouse

[srturtle.livejournal.com]

No, it's not my usual me. I apologize. Just had a downer of a day with little sleep to boot.

I didn't get any, but that was the least of my issues. It's amazing how many people want to see bigger and better things on public access but then take any public opportunity to take pot shots at it. People just want their cake and to eat it, too.

[nepenthedreams]

Wow, I'm sorry to see you feeling down. You've been pretty much a buoyant positive spirit for me in the past.

Get some sleep, and maybe you'll wake up and things will look better to you.

[srturtle.livejournal.com]

They have been much better today, thanks.

I'm glad I can be seen as a generally positive spirit! You're very kind to say so. I wasn't always so positive on a regular basis. It's amazing what tolls a sleep disorder can have on one's personality.

Thank you for being there to give me encouragement when I'm down. I truly appreciate it.